thoughts and perceptions

 when zoomed out and seen in the long term point of view, the entire human life is a needless drama. We are no different from other species of botany and zoology; what differentiated is the stemming of an ego (identity for oneself?) and the consequential feeding of that beast as it inflates and the slow deflation that happens over the later decades. Now that humans have formulated this model, one is to nevertheless subscribe and follow that model despite knowing it's drama, because survival and thriving on earth needs the support and reliance on the community. -- The drama arises from symbolic cognition : language, memory, anticipation, narrative. Arthur Schopenhauer — life as will-driven striving with no final satisfaction Albert Camus — the absurdity of seeking meaning in an indifferent universe Human life has no external necessity, but strong internal momentum The system(civilization) survives because it hijacks the reward circuitry , not because it coerces. That’s why reb...

  Euphoria assumes: “I deserve this.” Despair assumes: “This shouldn’t have happened to me.” A disenchanted framing dissolves both: events don’t reward or punish, they unfold. Responsibility remains, drama exits. Trading highs and lows for stability and clarity.   Most relationships are not built to accommodate ego-light people. They are built to  stabilize ego , not transcend it.  The usual path: holding a girl's hands and losing sense of time. That drug loses potent. Then the physical intimacy. Romanticism. Stages. Continuous upping of doses through novelty and using the intelligence to fuel the same. It saturates. The emptiness comes in (or becomes visible). Everything that which is valued, losing relevance. The penchant to find new ways to keep the relationship alive and kicking - wanes. Without the biological (or neurochemical) backing to it, effort has to stem only through obligation and rules of engagement than by free will. Been through that path. The chasing...