priority.

 Managing my own body. As in, instincts. And trying to have a quality time on earth for intellectual pleasures like, reading, writing, learning, knowing, wondering, solving, deciphering, decoding.. pattern recognizing to connect the dots.. It is like a price I have to pay (as an animal based foundation) to reap the human (intellectual) benefits. If this is the perspective I have for human life on earth, then a relationship where entering into a deal to be responsible for another being on earth.. That is a double price to pay, isn't it? I can be in a survival mode for myself (wrt the foundation) but I cannot really ask a woman to do the same (unless she is in the same pov about life).

For example, I can survive on bland food that is nutritive enough for healthy body functioning. Go celibate to handle urges (appropriate programming of the mind for the same) and be frugal on socializing with family and friends to save that time for those that I desire. 

How will that be possible in a typical Indian relationship which is a fusion of two families instead of two individuals and the social expenditure (time, primarily; other resources too) is too high. 

This, is what I can theorize in the interaction with the Dr and though the brief period of intellectual companionship was beautiful with her, it couldn't survive the price that is demanded from me as obligations as well as the sacrifice of her career goals. 

It will go down in my memories as a pleasant recollection as the theoretical ideal of how to love someone unconditionally: without expectations and for what she is (as such) than what she could do for me. 

The critical self is smiling. He approves, so some self-respect gained!