stability.

 There's everything. 

A decent genetics inherited from either of the lineage. There's a tendency towards insulin resistance in one side; have to tone down on the food-as-happiness/cope to handle that. 

Also, there's high uric acid that came from the father. Going lean on protein and nil on added sugars, minimizing fructose. 

Eyesight good. Teeth, about 70% good and needs thorough discipline in maintaining. Still not brushing every night. 

Body aside..

Mind. Filled with life experiences, lived and observed. At a good stage to pick/choose what (should/shouldn't) matter. Quality experiences takes priority over playing slave to the invisible threads from the puppet masters aka genetic drives of instincts and programmed meaning pathways and feeling alive in those circuits. 

Time is running out. In the end I will have to stop and rely on memories and observations as the means to be alive, till then, to participate as much. 

The "I" will(should) cease to exist before the mind and physiological death, respectively. Ordained life, if so.

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